Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Call to Action

Can it really be a call to action if I'm the only one who requires action?

Nonetheless, I've had an awful two weeks. I had my hell week where I had about 6,000 things due. Then I got sick, so I haven't been able to work out in 2 weeks, and I've been eating high-calorie sick food. So I feel like I've gained back about 5 of the pounds that I've lost :(

Then this week I've been getting grades back from hell week. And I didn't do so well. Like I did really, really, really bad. So I was really depressed earlier today. But instead of moping, I've developed a call to action for myself. For Chemistry, I will read and outline the chapters before the lectures. Then before the test I will go into his office hours and ask him what kind of "little" things will be on the test. I will work on my chemistry homework way early in the tutoring center.

For Physiology I will devote more time to studying before the test. I will make notecards, and I will talk to Brilla to see if it's possible to bring my grade back up, and what I need to do. I will also finish my lab report next week so I have time to edit it.

For Physics, I will work on the homework with Erin in the tutoring center and I will study a LOT more.

With these things, I will bounce back from my bad grades and I get good grades. It will be hard but I can do it.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010


Is this not the coolest thing you've ever seen? That's a pumpkin! Most awesome pumpkin carver ever.

Monday, October 18, 2010


Right after I made that last post, this add came up on the side of the page. I laughed. Google understands my pain. Thanks Google for trying to help me. I wish it was that easy. I might actually take a look at the website though and see if it helps. I'm also visiting Alex tonight, who said he could help me. Hopefully between those two things, I'll be able to finish my chemistry homework without literally tearing my hair out and breaking down into uncontrollable sobs. Cross your fingers for me! Ha.


Have I mentioned before how much I hate chemistry? If I haven't, let me make it clear to you now. I hate chemistry with a fire-y, burning passion, more than anything in the entire world. If I was able to go back in time and stab the person who first started studying chemistry, I would. When this quarter is over, I am going to literally stab my chemistry book with a huge knife. Then I am having a bonfire with Erin to burn the pages one by one, and we will dance around the fire in a sketchy ritual that involves some sort of spell that will kill chemistry forever.

That's how much I hate chemistry.

Though all of these feelings are merely made worse by the fact that not only do I have a chemistry test, chemistry homework and chemistry lab due this week, but I also have physics homework, a physics test, an exercise physiology lab report and a physiology test. All this week. How on earth am I supposed to do that. I was supposed to study A LOT over the weekend. And I did, except I had the hardest time focusing. I swear I spent an hour staring at my lab report trying to figure out what to write. I went to work on the chemistry homework with Kari, but spent most of my time helping her with the problems I had already done. So now I have more than half of my chemistry homework to do, and I STILL have to write the discussion section of my physiology report (which is the hardest and requires research that I haven't done because I don't know where to start) and both are due tomorrow.

God I'm screwed. I feel like my head is going to explode from the stress. I can't wait to freaking be done with undergrad and go to grad school where things actually matter and are interesting to me and where CHEMISTRY IS NO WHERE TO BE SEEN. Screw you chemistry.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Junk Mail

Do you ever go through your junk mail. I do occasionally and I get a lot of emails like this one:

Dearest one,

Permit me to inform you of my desire to go into business relationship with you , after going
through your profile and I prayed over it and selected your name among other names due to the nature of my proposal,which requires a reputable and trustworthy person. Someone who will be kind and sincere to me.

l am Miss Jessica Anoh the only daughter of late Mr and Mrs Basil Anoh My father was a very wealthy cocoa merchant in Abidjan here, the economic capital of Ivory Coast, he was poisoned to death by his only brother (My Uncle) and his business associates on one of their business meeting. My mother died on the 20th october 1995 and my father took me so special because l am motherless. Before the death of my father on 29th november 2008 in a private hospital here in Abidjan,he secretly called me on his bedside, when I sat down to listen to him, he started crying,when I aksed him why?
(1) He complained that I am too young to be managing my life with no one to take care of me.
(2) That I have not finished my university education as he planned for me, he revealed to me that he has a sum of $5.5Million USD (FIVE MILLION FIVE HUNDRED THOUSAND UNITED STATES DOLLARS) left in a security company here in Abidjan, that he used my name as the only daughter for his next of kin in deposit of the funds.

She goes on to say (at great length) that her Uncle is the one who poisoned her father and that he is out to kill her as well to get the money. She says that she needs a foreign business partner to be her guardian in the US to help her with all her money. And that if I do this I will get 15% of her money. I always think these are really funny. And I've always wanted to send an email back and make it really intense, like a CIA operation or something. Really sketchy and stealthy like. You know something like:

Dearest Jessica,

I accept your offer. It is too dangerous to converse over email. I'm sending you a letter with a code in it. Break the code, and you'll have all the answers you need. If you have any questions, you can find me where the crow flies. Watch your back.


Literal Movie Trailers

So funny. And catchy. It's been stuck in my head all day. "He needs a nose, and he needs some sleep. And some new glaaaasssses." Haha there are also literal music videos and those are funny too. Check out "Total Eclipse of the Heart."

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

My New Scale

I finally bought myself a scale yesterday! I hadn't weighed myself in a couple weeks so I was pretty excited, as I should have been... I now weigh 160 pounds :) That's a 10 pound weight loss over 2 ish months I think. 160 is by no means my goal weight, but it's nice to be able to say that I've lost 10 pounds.

On that note, I've been doing really well, I think I'm on my way to a legitimate lifestyle change. I feel a little gross today though because I had a poppyseed muffin for breakfast instead of the yogurt that I usually do. Which wouldn't be the end of the world except I had one yesterday too. Zach brought us muffins and now there's a whole bunch of them in the kitchen. What usually helps me though is remembering how gross I feel now. So that next time I'm tempted I can remind myself that I don't want to feel this gross again. Tomorrow I will NOT eat a poppyseed muffin, and I will go to the gym and run while I watch Criminal Minds and I will feel much better :)

Sunday, October 10, 2010


First off, let me say that I know this picture is kind of depressing looking. But it's also kind of cool. And it's what came up when I typed in, "drowning". I don't really feel like that. So don't worry haha.

That being said, I went to a Chem 123 study group today, and I already feel like I'm drowning (hence the picture). I mean the tutoring session wasn't too bad, it actually helped quite a bit. It's the fact that once again I have no idea what is going on in Chemistry. How does that happen. I'm so sick of it. I'm sick of feeling stupid and working so hard and not getting anything out of it. I will be so happy when I'm done with Chemistry and I can actually get good grades. I honestly believe that all of my grades would be better if I didn't have to take that godforsaken class. Then, when I'm stressed about one thing, all the little things add up to make my head explode. Like the fact that I need to clean my room, and that I left my dad's cell phone charger in Leavenworth (after leaving MY charger in Ellensburg last weekend), and being worried about my Physiology test, and needing to find a private tutor but not having the money to pay for it, and other things (er... well one specific thing) that I don't want to talk about online for the world (meaning the 6 people who sometimes read this) to see.

Also, it's 11:37 and I am freaking tired because I had to get up early to drive home from Leavenworth today. How did it get so late. No one knows. I'm losing my mind.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Dwight Clark Found

They found Dwight Clark today. He was found dead in the Bellingham Bay by a log lagoon or something. I don't even know what else to say about it. It's so... immensely sad. I mean, this kid was one of us. He lived in Nash, he was going through the same experiences I went through three years ago. What was so different about him than any of us? It could have been anyone. I've spent years telling my parents how safe Bellingham is, and how safe my campus is. That ideal has been completely shattered. They say that there is no evidence of foul play (yet) but there has to be. How else does Dwight end up in the bay miles from where he was last heard from? And that scares me. Someone in MY CITY. Killed this boy. How am I supposed to ever feel safe here again?

I send all of my well-wishes to the family. His poor mother lost her husband when Dwight was in eighth grade (so I read). That poor woman has lost her husband, and now her son. I can't even imagine what that must be like. Hopefully she has other family to get her through this.

R.I.P. Dwight Clark

Michael Bayifier

This website is dedicated to "Michael Bayifying" your photos. It's pretty freaking awesome. For those of you that don't know, Michael Bay is director. Who always stars Shia Labeouf, and likes bombs and high speed car races. Think Transformers.


Sunday, October 3, 2010


Kelsey just showed me this website. And I almost died laughing. Check it out.