I'm thinking that I might switch my blog over to Tumblr. I'm starting to get bored with my Blogger layout, and while I can change it, they all pretty much look the same. Tumblr has a lot of really exciting layouts. They are different and awesome :)
Though, I kinda like being able to go back and look at my old posts. So I'll be sad to just leave them here all alone. :'(
Ok. I've done it. I switched over to Tumblr. Goodbye blogger!
I hate crushes. They're stupid. And they never work well for me, because I always get too attached. And I promised myself that I would not have anymore crushes. I was doing SO WELL for like, 6 months! And yet, here I am in this position again. Over thinking everything, asking everyone their opinions, facebooking, plotting, and most importantly: GETTING MY HOPES UP FOR NO GODDAMN REASON. And I'm not being pessimistic. It's just true. He hasn't shown ANY signs of being interested. But I must be kind of masochistic, because I'm thinking about asking him out anyways on that small, itsy, bitsy chance that maybe he'll decide to give ME a chance. Which is pretty much just setting myself up for failure and undoing all the good my self-esteem has been up to in the past 6 months. Why? Why do I let this happen? I swear though, I think the only way a relationship is ever going to work out for me is if he decides to pursue me. They have to surprise attack me. Otherwise I scare all the men away with my... Andieness? I don't know. That's what I should call it though. My Andieness. Grrrr.
So you know that analogy about the brain being a sponge so you can soak up knowledge? Well, sometimes I feel like I soak up too much knowledge. For example, last year when I took anatomy I studied so much that I started to go a little insane. My brain was a sponge and it was soaking up knowledge. But it got to the point that I felt like my sponge was starting to infringe on my skull. And because of that, water (a.k.a. KNOWLEDGE) was leaking out of the sponge to form a psychotic puddle in my head.
That's how I feel now. I have a functional anatomy test tomorrow and I started studying a little bit later than I would have liked. Also, I have a crying friend in my room whose roommates are being awful. Which leaves me with the couch to sleep on tonight (not that I'm gonna get much sleep)since I'm not done studying and she needs to go to bed. And then there are my two genius lab partners who are freaking out about the exam, which in turn is making me freak out. And then I was studying via Skype with Erin but Kelsey shushed me so now I'm scared that I was keeping her up. And all of these things are making my brain feel like it's leaking. But I need to calm down. Because when I get stressed out, I don't remember shit. I think I have mild test anxiety. So I. Need. To. Calm. Down.
Can go die. It is 11:46 pm and I am TRYING to be a good little student and study for physics. But I just can't find the motivation. I already have an A+++ in the class and I know that I still have to study. But I don't want to. I want to sleep. I want to browse iTunes. I want to look at Zac Levi's beautiful face. And every time I try to study, I hear Professor Vawter's OBNOXIOUS voice in my head.
"Now I know that you all only care about getting good grades. But school isn't ALL about GETTING good grades. It's about UNDERSTANDING the material. But you ONLY care about the GRADES! How are you SUPPOSED to LEARN if you don't UNDERSTAND the MATERIAL? Now I'm going to LECTURE you all for 45 MINUTES about stupid TOPICS and have my voice CRACK every FEW words, and more FREQUENTLY when I'M getting WORKED UP!" In summation: Physics can go die.
My new favorite song :) guess where I found it? Chuck of course! I always find the greatest music during that show. And on another note: this weeks episode of Chuck was fan-freaking-tastic. Like I could watch it over and over again because I loved it so much. *sigh* I'm so marrying Zac Levi.